Background: Why do I love what I fear? There are things that keep me
awake at night, wondering if they will be my downfall. These things fascinate me. They
also give me anxiety. In my work, past and present, I have always touched on how anxiety
can affect people, how it drives us to feel lost within ourselves. But I always felt
like there was something more to it than just that. Working through this thought after
feeling stuck in my work and creation process it became apparent that while I was
focusing clearly on anxiety itself, I was ignoring everything that triggered it. Anxiety
has more depth to it than just being anxiety and at times there is a mysticism to it
that makes it all the more complex. and Keywords: anxiety, depression, marine life, water, thalassaphobia,
claustrophobia, pediophobia, sleep paralysis, ink, pen, paper, organic life, aquarium,
fears, irrational, rational, unknown, haunting, faded, stress relief, therapy,
therapeutic, paper, sculpture, ocean, water